I feel like so much has happened in such a short amount of time. From and outside perspective none of it seems monumental. No one went to college and no births occurred. No birthdays were had. Although we did celebrate our 17th anniversary.
The kind of events in referring to are of a spiritual nature. I feel changed for the better. Ok a way that’s hard to describe but I will try.
I was so grateful for last Thursday and that I had prayed to know how to keep peace in my heart. I did not realize I was going to get to utilize that knowledge in such abundance over the span of the coming week.
It all started with a four hour delay and not getting home till after 10:30. I was so tired from many nights of not sleeping well (and everything is harder for me when I’m tired) we pulled into the garage and Ryan noticed his brand new bike, he bought it Saturday and it was his birthday and Christmas gift, was gone. Apparently when the kids were riding bikes earlier around the neighborhood they left the garage open and someone stole it. Emma had noticed it was got but forgot to tell Ryan.
I was so upset. We both were. This bike was to be the means of some solid family time. Ryan never does things for himself. He is always giving his time for everyone else. The next morning when I woke up I still felt frustrated but hopeful that maybe it could be recovered. We filed a report with the police and put up signs.
As I went to study my scriptures I thought of the 30 day challenge and realized my deepest desire was to recover that bike. I pleaded with the Lord that if it be His will would he help me to know what more I could do to help recover the bike?
I did have the thought to put up flyers by the skatepark near us but other then that as I read scriptures nothing came. I remembered I had started reading an article from last months ensign on the plane but got interrupted before I was done.
I journaled this after reading that article “We may never find the bike. I understand that. As Ryan put it, “the Lord giveth and the Lord taketh” As I read the above I felt peace regarding the situation. Regardless of what happens I know He is aware of us. I can let go now and trust this peaceful feeling. I know He will lead me when the timing is right. And that may just mean that He will lead us to happiness regardless of if we find the bike or not. I feel more peace and for that I’m grateful. ”
On Friday morning I was talking to my sister-in-law Allie about the missing bike and I this story came to my mind.
“There is a Chinese story of a farmer who used an old horse to till his fields. One day, the horse escaped into the hills and when the farmer’s neighbors sympathized with the old man over his bad luck, the farmer replied, “Bad luck? Good luck? Who knows?” A week later, the horse returned with a herd of horses from the hills and this time the neighbors congratulated the farmer on his good luck. His reply was, “Good luck? Bad luck? Who knows?”
Then, when the farmer’s son was attempting to tame one of the wild horses, he fell off its back and broke his leg. Everyone thought this very bad luck. Not the farmer, whose only reaction was, “Bad luck? Good luck? Who knows?”
Some weeks later, the army marched into the village and conscripted every able-bodied youth they found there. When they saw the farmer’s son with his broken leg, they let him off. Now was that good luck or bad luck?
Everything that seems on the surface to be an evil may be a good in disguise. And everything that seems good on the surface may really be an evil. So we are wise when we leave it to God to decide what is good fortune and what misfortune, and thank him that all things turn out for good with those who love him.”
I again felt peace in regards to the lost bike.
Later that day Ryan received a phone call letting him know that some kids had found his bike. They found it in a wash and had seen the signs.
I feel losing the bike and then finding it in a miraculous way, especially after Heavenly Father helped me to be at peace that it might be forever lost, has been a huge blessing to me personally. I am being taught how to ask for things with sincerity of heart while still finding peace in His will.
It’s a lesson I hope is seared into my heart.